can't believe he's dead!
The news came drifting down the street like whispers in the wind. Then
slowly, but surely, it built up into a shriek of discordant notes,
painful in its intensity.
Only a few days ago I paused to hear him speak. I'd caught glimpses of
him previously and noticed how often he was engaged in conversation with
a wide cross-section of people. Sometimes as I passed he was laughing
uproariously, but more often he spoke with intensity and conviction.
Not that he was anyone special. He held no particular political clout,
nor did he appear to have many friends who would push his cause. Rather
he was a loner, a person not afraid to speak his mind about inequalities
and prejudices, especially when they concerned the attitudes and actions
of officials.
Then one day something about the man caught my attention and I found
myself being drawn into the crowd that was gathering around him. He was
sitting quietly by the lake, amid upturned boats in the midst of fishing
nets spread out to dry and for repair. His face was turned toward the
sea and he seemed lost in his own thoughts. Slowly he roused, as if
from a reverie, sighed deeply, and turned his head. Small children
circled him, scuffling in their interaction with each other, all vying
for his attention. Then gently he lifted one little toddler to his
knees and there was an instant hush as he spoke quietly. She wrapped
her arms around his neck, and having kissed him shyly, slid back down to
the friends. He seemed to have awakened from his reverie. His eyes,
drifting about over the growing throng, seemed to carry a deep and
intense love for those milling about him. It was as if his meditation,
wrapped around him like a cloak, was being extended to enfold all within
his gaze.
Sitting there, his eyes moved broodingly over the faces in the crowd
until they rested on me. Those eyes seemed to weigh my life, to hold my
attention in a grip so firm that I could not turn away. In the silence
I was aware this man knew me, as did no other, yet his manner was not
intrusive. His eyes spoke of sympathy, understanding and peace.
Nothing else seemed to matter, not the passage of time or
responsibilities of business. I was conscious only of the compulsion to
be close to him. Somewhere deep within me a new emotion stirred, almost
an aching for an undefined otherness, intangible, yet intense.
Then with the swiftness of an arrow hitting its mark the moment passed.
Children again burst through the crowd as does water through a crack in
a dam wall, and surrounded him. He smiled as they skirmished, pressing
ever closer to his side. One small gesture from him produced silence,
and they sank to the ground. Then he spoke.
His words produced life-sized portraits of the characters in his
stories. He was, in fact, the ultimate storyteller. Yet it was not
just the words he used, but the dimensions those words opened as we
listened to him. They pried open the locks on personal attitudes and
responses that had long been atrophied. They challenged everything we
had learned, every behaviour we considered reasonable and acceptable.
They exploded our concept of love until, in its expansion, love filled
every corner of the universe. There was no place or circumstance from
which love could be excluded. Logic and rationality lost their
prominence as love assumed its dominion. Hate, anger and fear dissolved
as they were washed gently by waves of love. New and challenging
thoughts, yet he invited us to embrace them, and experience the
difference.
Suddenly I became aware he had stopped speaking and had climbed into a
boat waiting just offshore. The crowd began moving, some musing over
his words, others beginning to bicker over the implications of what they
had heard. As for me, nothing mattered but what he had said. He had
spoken to my soul and my life would never again be the same.