by: Maria Söderström
Oh, what wonderful words! It seems so easy, but sometimes it feels so difficult!
So is it for me. I really wish that I could always have peace in my heart, in my soul, no matter what is happening. But it is not the case, not for me. I have suffered with depression for many years now. I have asked God many times: "Take it away." But it is there still.
My church told me that I had to leave my homosexuality and I'm living in sin because I'm living with my best friend. That is very hurtful to hear and even if it was many years ago.
But through all this, I know He is walking by my side, even if I don't feel that way. Even if I am so "down in the darkness," He lights my way because He is the light!
Sometimes I think that He is very quiet, I can be very angry at him, but suddenly, He talks, through something I read or sometimes I just feel His presence near me. I understand in that moment that I am loved by a living God, not because of something I do, but because He has created me just as I am.
And it is the same for you, too!
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