up to Big Mama:
A Black Gay/Lesbian Requirement
my better judgment, I allowed myself to be lured into a conversation concerning
the bible by an 80 year old black woman who wore a rhinestone studded church
hat the size of Delaware. As she engaged me in conversation, her helmet
for Jesus began to rotate around the temples of her head the more self-righteous
she became as it tried desperately not to be outdone by her encyclopedia-sized
bible that she clutched for dear life.
By the time I finished sharing with her all of my exegetical and theological
conclusions on a myriad of social and biblical issues, big mama had firmly
and permanently placed me on her warrior prayer hit list!!
In fact she used all of her might to fire hose me down with holy water
while speaking in tongue. This ninja for Jesus wanted me dead for my own
good!! She ranted, raved and quoted as many bible scriptures as there
are stars in the universe. She couldn't fathom, wouldn't accept and eventually
got down on both her bad knees to intercede to God on my behalf.
Reflecting back on the experience, I'm not sure what I was thinking
when I began to share with her my progressive thoughts concerning spirituality,
the black church, and the spiritual meaning behind scripture. Deep down
I knew she really wouldn't accept or understand the theological study
that I've been pursuing to draw me closer to God, especially when it came
to the issue of homosexuality.
But there was also a part of me that wondered whether we should continue
to give up on all of the big mama's and the "I've been preaching for over
40 years" pastor/bishops who refuse to comprehend anything other than
the literal black and white text of King James.
They seem to worship the bible more than they worship God, becoming
more pharisaic as they grow older. Since there is absolutely no biblical
condemnation of homosexuality as it is correctly interpreted in its original
Hebrew and Greek languages against 1st and 2nd century culture; our black
clergy once it finally become theologically educated in greater masses,
should actually become the bridge and healing point concerning homophobia
within the black community.
At this point in time the odds of that happening are about as great
as big mama changing up on her wigs. So that really leaves us as black
gay/lesbians who know the truth to stand up for the truth.
We can no longer allow out of reverence, the older black generation
to continue their spiritual abuse and spiritual murder of gays/lesbians.
Further we can no longer allow well known black televangelists and lesser
known black pastor/bishops to continue their mighty role in spiritual
abuse and spiritual murder as well.
Bottom line, whether young or old, clergy or laity, the black community
as a whole can no longer replicate their white counterparts by embracing
homophobia and worshipping hatred and then dressing it up as Jesus. It
is time for us as black gay/lesbian men, women and children to finally
ascend to the throne of political/social activism to fight against this
spiritual war of wickedness in high places. For we must never forget that
our liberation is not free and that our present, future and literal lives
depend upon our standing up and being both seen and heard in this world.
Herndon L. Davis
is author of "Black, Gay & Christian" and can be reached at http://blackgaychristian.com
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