Category Archives: Journeys

Dove flying in Lisbon, Portugal

Making Peace with Ourselves

“Do not repay anyone evil for evil. If possible, on your part, live at peace with everyone. Friends, do not avenge yourselves; instead, leave room for His wrath. For it is written: Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.” (Rom 12:17-19) “Do

Hands making heart shape

Create in Me a Clean Heart

There was a time when I thought a clean heart and a right spirit meant denying my sexuality and gender ambiguity. That was my understanding of it. But that was not God’s understanding of it for me. In a strange way God can draw straight

People at concert

Losing Love to an Ex-Gay Ministry

When I met her, she was my best friend. We worked together as mental health counselors in a fundamentalist evangelical agency. I had known her for three years. (During that time, I had been married to a wonderful man whom I divorced due to our

Man worrying with furrowed brow


Times get hard. 2007 was a tough year for me. At the end of 2006, I spent 6 nights in the hospital. I’ve always been rather healthy, so this was a completely new experience for me. This put me in a spin for most of

Tealight Candle on Human Palms

To Be — Or Not?

Some years ago, I tried a breathing meditation. The idea was to spend some time simply watching my own breath. Not breathing any special way, not trying to achieve anything but stillness. “If random thoughts emerge,” my teachers told me, “simply let them go.” Simply


God Restores My Soul

After being accepted to the church and the church’s in-house seminary program (while taking another seminary program) I finally got baptized. I had been seeking baptism for about 3 years and the church I was attending just wasn’t all that interested in seeing to my

Tattooed man praying

Petitioning God: How To Get Your Prayers Answered

I was going on 15 when the Creator of the universe first revealed himself to me, at a junior high after-school Bible study that I was attending for purely social reasons. After a half hour or so of chips, dip, Hawaiian punch, and strategic mingling

Dandelion blowing in the wind

Joy in the Moment

My partner and I watched as our two youngest daughters were baptized on a calm, warm summer day. The music played, the quartet sang and the minister shared with us about renewal and rebirth. We watched with a peaceful calm in our hearts as they

Dandelion blowing in the wind

The Joy of Our Faith

I know a gay man named Don, and as I write this, he is in a hospital fighting for his life. He’s HIV+ and that, together with the fact that he’s taken drugs all of his life, has taken a steady toll on his body